*still spazzing about*

[eleclya]

hokay, freaking the fuck out.

How much do i totally not feel ready for this. I felt like an absolute child this morning, wishing my mum was home so she could check i've definitely got everything and tell me everything would be ok and basically calm me the fuck down. It's pathetic, but this is my first ever job interview, it's my first interview for anything in about three years, and it's the first time i've travelled this far on my own. It's like... Way to throw yourself in at the deep end there. So i've been running around like an idiot, checking everything 5 million times (tho i'm still not confident that i've got everything >.<) and generally freaking out. I decided to get the earlier train and was still panicking that the taxi was 2 minutes late and there was traffic, even tho it's my local train station, it takes 5 minutes to get to, and i'd called the taxi 20 minutes earlier than necessary.

Urgh, i'm not used to this. I don't panic. I'm normally so good at staying calm and just saying what's the worst that can happen. I don't know how to deal with this.

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Comments

[kthxrawr.livejournal.com]

sweets, deep breath. just pretend like you're confident and hold your head high.
you will be fine, okay? i believe in you, as does everyone else. *sends hugs*

[eleclya-m.livejournal.com]

*cuddles*

[kthxrawr.livejournal.com]

*cuddles some more*

[illessa.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

If I could do it when I was running around looking at games companies without any major disasters, so can you. You've always been more organised than me :D.

Just keep yourself distracted with fun things, completely none-serious things whilst on the train until you feel calmer, and it'll be fine when you get there.

[eleclya-m.livejournal.com]

*hugs* reading and musics are keeping me relatively calm. I just wish i didn't have all the stress of travelling and having to change in london and having been in the house on my own and stuff for my very first interview :\

[illessa.livejournal.com]

Ugh, changing in London is lame, it rarely goes wrong though, the tube's pretty reliable, just sprawly and too many people. Shame it was such short notice really, you could have tried going a day early, booking a B&B and sweet-talking parents into paying for it. Sauntering around new places is always a fun way to recover from traveling and calm down, pre-interview. Unless it's somewhere ugly and boring obviously :).

*hugs again* you'll be great, you just need to relax, think of it as an experience you can learn things from whatever way it goes, and let your general awesomeness shine through :).

[eleclya-m.livejournal.com]

You jinxed it with the 'rarely goes wrong', my journey's now gonna take 5 and a half hours instead of 4 D:

I managed not to let myself cry over it tho, so i'll claim it as a success. And i should still just about get there in time thanks to planning on getting there as early as possible.

I guess one positive way to look at it is after this no job interview will ever seem stressful by comparison :\

[illessa.livejournal.com]

Eep! :-O *hugs yet again* yeah I shouldn't have said that obviously...

[missfoxie.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight*

I have faith in you, mi amiga. All will be okay.

Just breathe, and remember how you are TOTALLY AWESOME.

[eleclya-m.livejournal.com]

*cuddles* travel has been ridiculously stressful, but an trying to convince myself that if the journey is this horrible and i've dealt with this without breaking down, the actual interview should be easy.

Not sure how sound this logic is, but it's keeping of same so i'll stick with it